Being completely honest
I just spent three hours on writing the most personal and honest blog post I have ever written. I have written similar personal posts a couple of times before, but I have never published any of them. Instead, I save them in my private offline diary. But I was really close to posting this one, and I am actually planning to do it once I've got a chance to read (and edit) the post with a clear mind and some time for reflections.
It wouldn't be very fun to read since it doesn't show any good side of me. I am writing about my weaknesses and inabilities, and even about the situation where I was ready to just give up on it all. But at the same time it is details that people should know about me, since it explains a lot about my personality and the choices I make - and how I work from now on. It also includes apologies to clients and friends that I have disappointed over the last years, and a hint about one possible future for me and for this site - all depending on what you think.
But as I wrote in the first paragraph of the mentioned post: "A post like this should never be published on a day of worries", so it will have to wait. Besides, tomorrow is reserved for Johanna as we are celebrating 7 years together, and that means more than everything else…
By the way, here is a small and completely unrelated little surprise: Recognize this melody?
Sorry for the short length and the lousy sound quality, it was filmed with a simple digital camera with limited movie functionality…
Comments
Comment from Lionne
Time: July 2, 2007, 12:49 pm
It's a really nice melody, it's one of these I like most from your songs.
Comment from Michael
Time: July 2, 2007, 1:18 pm
Andreas, we are all human. Our faults and mistakes are part of what make us unique, as well as our creative facets. The beauty is that you recognize both sides, and that you can bring the whole being to the table and lay it out for all to view. I hold no judgment, other than the fact that it is clear to me that you have a big heart, you are willing to share that which is most dear (and most troubling) to you, and that you have some wonderful people to share your life with - Johanna, your father, friends, even me.
Sensitivity is a gift with a double edge - one which I share. Try not to spend much time riding on the rough serrated edge of doubt - spending time on the bright, finely honed edge of light is time better spent.
Warm Regards,
Michael
Comment from Tomek
Time: July 2, 2007, 3:07 pm
"tomorrow is reserved for Johanna as we are celebrating 7 years togetherbtw" I think it's great to stay together for so long time congratulations! (I'm only 2 years with my girl). I also don't recognize the melody but i think it's something from Your oldest music.
Comment from Jo Ann
Time: July 2, 2007, 8:13 pm
Congratulations for the great 7 years ! I know is difficult to have and keep long relationships. Being together for so long it means you have a great relationship and you won't let anything ruin it. Life is so short and only the real friends are there for us when we need them.
Comment from Me, name doesn't matter
Time: July 3, 2007, 4:35 am
Andreas,
Je ne sais pas si c'est possible de traduire ce message en anglais, mais les émotions sont trop intense pour moi donc j'écris ainsi en français…
Tout le monde t'a toujours encouragé et le fera toujours, continuera de le faire. Tu as su nous monter que tu es un être humain, un homme avec une telle force qu'est l'authenticité. Tu as su être toi-même en admettant, en te montrant tel que tu es, de la manière dont tu te sens. L'honnêteté, est une qualité noble et je t'encourage à en faire preuve encore et encore.
Je ne fais que te féliciter, car c'est la seule chose que je puisse faire pour toi. Je ne crois pas que tu aies quelque chose à te reprocher, du moins de ce que je connais de toi. N'abandonne jamais car tu as su donner espoir à des gens comme moi qui commencent à vivre (résussir) de leur musique et de leur petites réalisations à partir de rien et d'échecs qui se suivaient l'un-l'autre. Tu es fort et tu le seras toujours, même dans le doute et la discorde. Tout ce que tu as fait de bien et de bon te reviendra, j'en suis sûr…
Je peux voir que tu es bien entouré, continue de te fier sur eux.
Je suis fier de toi, profite bien de ta journée avec Johanna et ta famille, tu le mérites!!!
Tack
James
Comment from Robbie
Time: July 3, 2007, 5:05 pm
First and most important of all, congrats on the 7 years.
Second, take your time with the personal entry, we'll be waiting for it :), and I cant recognize the song, I see the title but never heard of it before, I like the melody. :)
Comment from Andreas Berg
Time: July 3, 2007, 5:09 pm
So now you are together with your girl 7 years and one day - congratulations.
I think it's a great idea to share your weaknesses and inabilities with your readers as that just tightens the relationship to them. Of course this step also makes you vulnerable and it could happen that someone will react inappropriately. But as the strength of your blog is your openness and your personality I think it's a step in the right direction and improve this strength. Good luck.
Comment from Dima Design
Time: July 3, 2007, 7:02 pm
7 years it very long also speak about skill to find compromises and to love each other. I can always wish to be to Andreas the good person for Johanna is the main thing.
Comment from Song_WebJobs
Time: July 3, 2007, 10:43 pm
Congraulations on your 7 year anniversary!
Seems like you are very brave that you are having a serious time to see yourself and talk about it. It is not easy to me to face it. Good luck!
Comment from Matt Bercon
Time: July 3, 2007, 11:07 pm
Wow, 7 years, thats some serious time. I have only had one girl that I've lived with that long and she is my wife today after almost 8 years together.
Comment from Christopher
Time: July 4, 2007, 10:03 pm
Congratulations on your 7 year anniversary with Johanna! Looking forward to reading your blog post as well.
Comment from Dave
Time: July 5, 2007, 5:36 am
Andreas, yes congrads on the seven years.
Regarding your personal blog I'd say give it at least one week. if you are worried about it I'd let it rest for a few days. it does not appear to be time senstive so it would be better to wait. Everyone does NOT have to know about all your weaknesses. Focus on the positive. You can change the future but not the past!!!
Comment from heleny
Time: July 5, 2007, 11:46 am
Congratulations on your 7 years with Johanna. This is the most important thing in a man's life..to have someone you can share everything…
Comment from Moth
Time: July 5, 2007, 11:54 am
Sometimes I feel like a moth. In a good way.
Comment from jack
Time: July 9, 2007, 7:52 am
So now you are together with your girl 7 years - congratulations.
Regarding your personal blog I'd say give it at least one week. if you are worried about it I'd let it rest for a few days. it does not appear to be time senstive so it would be better to wait. Everyone does NOT have to know about all your weaknesses. Focus on the positive.
Comment from Arama Motoru Optimizasyonu
Time: July 13, 2007, 3:46 pm
very emotinoal post..and really great memories.Congurulations for 7 years.I hope everone will taste this feeling in one day :)
Comment from Kraig
Time: July 2, 2007, 9:02 am
I can't recognize the melody, but I like it! What is it?